Remember what I showed Will the song You Won’t Know by Brand New because it’s my favourite band
And remember how he said he didn’t like him
Well now he wants to borrow one of my Brand New shirt eheheh
Can’t say no to the Gods of music can ya eheheheheh
I just don’t see the point in trying anymore. You mean the world to me but I guess one too many times I’ve been told “Why do you guys even try anymore.”
I guess I just don’t feel like you appreciate me and maybe I don’t try hard enough to appreciate you.
Will you’re really fucking dumb sometimes and it’s okay for me to say this on my blog because your probably reading it anyway.
Honestly I just can’t believe you’d think I’m so much of an asshole that I’d rather hear rumours about people than actually getting to know them myself.
Sometimes I wonder if you even fucking know me at all.
Boys. (If Read More breaks still aren’t working on mobile sorrysorrysorry)
Before I fall asleep I would like to write some quotes down before I forget.
“I think you’re as cool as Juno McGuff.”
“You’re a girl like Ramona Flowers.”
These are probably two of the nicest things anyone has ever said to me, and whilst watching two of my favourite movies. If you do not understand my love for these characters, get out.
*Note: Juno is just incredible because she doesn’t give a shit and she lives and she doesn’t fucking whine and cry about everything like I do.
Ramona Flowers catches people’s attention, is herself in her own way. She was never perfect, fuck, she wasn’t made out to be perfect at all, and I like that.
Now I’m half asleep so more in depth blabber about such things some other time.
Things I plan to do today:
Get 3 hours of sleep (at least now I have a porn blog?)
Drink a Monster
Wear cute clothes
Wear half my weight in makeup
Trudge through the snow
Take the bus to my old school
Hang out with Will (hay bb imy/ily/I want the d)
Clean out my locker
Ask my old English teacher if she still has any of my work.
Give a letter to a boy (“The Boy Who Notices Me”) I’ve barely ever spoken to.
Panic
Spend the school’s lunch period with my darling bestfriend
Shiver on the bus ride home
Have a big nap while thinking too many thoughts
Possibly hang out with Aidan
Sleep.
Sleep.
Masturbate.
Sleep.
Some people are so full of shit.
But that’s beside the point. Had an awesome time “partying” last night.
Now my best friend’s over (Not you, Will, ily and imy though, fuck party with emotional movies soon?) and we’re eating popcorn and watching The Nanny. Thinking. The end.
Things I hope to do today:
Have a bath!
Paint my nails!
Get dressed!
Eat McDonalds!
Go to Goodwill!
Pass time!
Get my nose ring back in!
See Will!
Omg!
Apologize to people at work!
See Breaking Dawn pt2!
Get fucked up!
Awyeh!
oh ma jezuz
85: Would you ever date someone off the internet? Already have, haaaalllaa
81: Who are five people you find attractive? Only five?! Okay, um, Matt Dallas, Jay Baruchel, Juno Temple, Ellen Page, LittleRadge (Liam Drydan is perf ok)
77: What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships? Yolo amiright. Do whatever makes you comfortable.
74: What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for? I like when people want to buy me stuff, which is silly because part of me really hates when people buy me stuff. smh.
71: What was your kinkiest wet dream? Well I’ve spent every math class ever just fantasizing about whatever boy I fancy coming into the class, saying he urgently needs to speak to me, pulling me into an empty classroom/closet/washroom, kissing me passionately, you know. The works. This is why I’m bad at math.
70: What turns you on? Everything Neck kissing, dry humping, boners, talking about boners, thinking about boners, looking at boners, knowing boners exist, giving people boners.
67: What is your idea of the perfect date? Talking and sex.
62: What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you? Randomly get really hot, maybe we’ll be walking and they’ll just suddenly start kissing me and touching me, maybe they’ll pull me into a secluded place. Basically someone coming onto me even if I’ve shown no interest (not exactly but kind of okay)
58: What are five ways to win your heart? Being honest, funny, smart (I’ve always told myself brains didn’t matter but here I am only liking smart guys l o l), if I can truly be myself around you, being caring about me and what I have to say.
39: Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? Everyone.
38: Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? Will. Like wtf man, he’s ma best matey (hi bb imy come chill we’ll get really fucked up k)
22: Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? Yes.
14: Do you have a crush on anyone? A few people, yep.
9: Describe your perfect mate- My idea of my perfect match is never what I end up with, honestly. Someone brilliant, creative, a poet and musician. They’ll love art, every kind. They’d make me feel beautiful even when I’ve been sick for a month.
8: Describe your crush- Well, there’s this one guy. I haven’t seen him in forever because I haven’t been to school, but he’s in my band and my English IB class. In class we were talking about episodic stories and stuff, he mentioned the film Mr. Nobody. I quickly fangirled, causing him to kind of smile at me. Since then we’ve spoke a few times, and just the way he smiles at me in the hallway and says my name, I don’t know. He’s one of the only kids at school who cares about my existence, and he really cares- He came right up to me and asked where I’d been the first time I got really sick. I’m probably reading into it too much, but he looks at me with such interest, it drives me crazy. I have maybe three different poems on here about him. It’s kind of sad that when I start homeschooling I’ll never see him again.
I also have a crush on my friend Aidan who might see this and meow but oh well he’s just incredible but I don’t want to ruin our friendship and sigh gah ugh.I alsoalsoalsoalso have a crush on a fellow Tumblr user2: Are relationships ever worth it? My simple answer is “No.”
Had a lovely day of Perks, hookah and cookies with Willy Wolf. Now to practice trumpet and think about how well ill sleep tonight ∩(︶▽︶)∩
I wish I wrote down what Will said to me the other day, because it really is exactly what I’m feeling.
SometimesIinstagramshit yooo’
Yes, Will, I miss you. But I’m sick of you acting like a jealous fuck every time I hang out with someone else. You have twice as many friends as me, stop pretending I’m the only person who’s ever cared about you.
I also miss my boyfriend and my friend Michael who hates me, but life goes on.
