March 2011
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February 2011
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Oh. And one more thing. talked to Miss Lindsay the other day. she’s worried because im missing so much school. i let her know how i feel, all the way down to saying the government should go touch itself.
yup, she was shocked. whatever though. now the whole world can know i hate everything in my life. WOOHOOO!
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Love Affair by Copeland (On Repeat)
It’s been awhile, and maybe I should apologize. It’s not like anyone’s reading this, but I still feel guilty. I guess you could say a lot has happened. And nothing has happened. Fuck. It’s all opinion, so shaddup.
I spent some time with my mom this week. Hazardous. Fighting. As always. Sigh. Tuesday I told her to go fuck herself, and when I felt bad and texted her saying I...
When you listen to your iPod in public places.
On the outside you’re like:
But on the inside you’re like:
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I need a “GIVE-UP” button.
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40th post
So, it’s only fair that my 40th post be on my birthday, amIright? A whole new year bouncing up the walls, but I’m not to sure how to feel. At my moms at moment, going to the ear doctors tomorrow. Even though it’s early in the morning, I’m excited. I get my hearing tested, which I’ve always found fun, and it’s the hospital, so fuck yes, I’ll prolly’...
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Mind Rape!
So tired. Insomnia, for the fucking lose. Although the flu’s got me down and my headache is killing me, I’m actually feeling emotionally stable at the moment. Yay! It feel good to not want to KO myself. Or maybe I’m just to lazy to think about it. Herrrp derrp. I wouldn’t know the difference.
Quote stuck in my head-
“My lungs are pounding, breathing the air of my...
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I don’t know what to do anymore. Everything in life seems to be a hassle. I’m constantly depressed, angry, hurt. I don’t see the point in doing anything. Things I normally love doing, like surfing the web and reading just don’t seem entertaining anymore. My head is constantly pounding, my forehead is burning, but no matter what I do I can’t get out of this trance.
I...
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Physically & Emotionally Ill
So much to say, and on Abigails laptop so I don’t have spell-check. So, I apologize for ALL THE FAILURES yet to come.
Caplock ftw. >_<
So, as much as I wanted to go to school today (heh), little problem accured. I seem to have hit breaking point. My body’s killing me, without even the help of my mind.
Story Time!
~ I sighed, and slipped off the tight sweater I was wearing....
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Wednesday Morning, 3 A.M by Simon & Garfunkel
Why, the fuck is there a bug on my wall. Last I checked it was snowing outside, there should not be a bug on my wall. It should be dead. It should not be crawling up and down the wall.
It. Should. Be. Dead.
It’s really big and has lots of feet. I’m not sure what to call him, there’s so many names of this species. Potato-Bug? Doodlebug? Woodlouse? Bob?
I just jizzed fear in my...
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'Emily Rain Harness' anagrams to 'Shinier...
I’m a pussy.
Was to depressed to go to school today. I look in the mirror and get a slap in the face. I’m everything I hate. I’m angry at myself for not “manning-up” and going to school today, but what was I suppose to do? Walk around with tear stained eyes, bitch at my friends while they try to make me feel better. See Sam in the halls everywhere, both of us...
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“This surreal heart of mine wants you so bad,
And I guess I’m a freak for saying...”
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If.
If I committed suicide tonight, February 14, 2011, I would be free.
I will no longer have to worry about my family starving because my dad can’t keep money in his pocket. I will no longer deal with my dad’s girlfriend who my sisters hate with a burning passion. I could forget about my mom, and her constant stupid decisions that seem to be making everyones lives more difficult. I...
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Not really seeing the point in living when there’s more pain then happiness.
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50 songs
Valentines day a year ago.
I was madly in love with Chad.
I got sent out of my house, so my dad could have a break-down about my mother leaving him.
Now my parents aren’t aloud to go within 100 meters of each-other. Now I have an amazing boyfriend, that would never hurt me the way Chad did multiple times.
Anyway. I guess a lot can change in a year. For better or worst, we’ll have...
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He sang for me today, (:
Feeling exhausted 24/7 lately. Think I might have to spend this weekend in bed, fast asleep.
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El Condor Pasa
“How was your day?”
“Horrible.”
“Aw, what happened?”
“Nothing.”
“You sure? I’m here to talk if you want…”
Well, that’s just it. NOTHING happened today. And I’m sick of it. I’m sick of nothing. I’m sick of going through every day bored. Angry. Tired. Depressed. Every day goes by to fast, not giving...
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Went to the doctors yesterday. My anti-depressants aren’t working for me anymore. But I knew that much.
After today, I don’t really think I’m scared of Sam leaving me. As much as he’s out of my league, I think he was dropped on his head enough as a child to think I’m good enough for him, haha.
Anyway, although it’s only 10pm, I’m off to bed. Been having...
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Sunday February 6, 2011= Probably a day to...
Today was kind of fantastic. Sam’s house is awesome, I’m going to cry when it gets demolished :3 <3 <3 <3
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Travelin' Soldier by Dixie Chicks.
opinion |əˈpinyən|nouna view or judgment formed about something, not necessarily based on fact or knowledge : I’m writing to voice my opinion on an issue of great importance | that, in my opinion, is dead right.• the beliefs or views of a large number or majority of people about a particular thing : the changing climate of opinion.• ( opinion of) an estimation of the quality or worth of...
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Whine Whine Whine.
A lot going on in my mind right now. Emotions burning my feet, I’m walking on lava. It seems I can’t keep my thoughts in check at the moment, they all want the spot-light, they all want to be heard. Why can’t they work together? Why do they expect me to drain out their screaming to hear one opinion at a time?
Hey. Kind of in a simple (/complex?) mood. Just going to list feelings...
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A lot of conflicting emotions today. To many thoughts to make sense of them. Night <3
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Creativity.
I’m tired. My hair is wet so I can’t go to bed, so I’m going to do some writing. It’s been forever since I’ve given myself time to be inspired.
Let the thoughts begin.
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Short Spam.
Spent the afternoon sleeping. Glaring at the empty kitchen wishing there was food in it. Missing Sam like crazy, didn’t see him much today. Got a date tomorrow though, which makes up for it. <3
